Friday, April 25, 2008
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Its mom's fourth day since the discharge from her op.

Life's practically hell at home. It has been freaking hard taking care of mom. She's like so fussy about every single thing & she's getting more & more moody as the days passed. Dad's like on the brink of exploding with annoyance but I suppose he managed to calm himself down by venting all the irritation&anger on yours truly.

If saying mom being unreasonable at times is bad enough, its even worse now that she;s trying to recover at home. She's so hot tempered! She kept droning on about me being so dumb & she has to complain about every single thing I try to do for her.

Its hard for me to try to bottle up all the frustration & anger inside me. But I know everyone's trying their best to let her have her way since we cant afford to gat her too agigated.

I know it has been hard on mom. She cant lifts her head up at all for 14 days. Its not even a week & everyone's like so tired already. Every single night, I set up alarms through the night to wake up to check on mom that she doesnt accidentally forgets & lifts her head up or something.

Dad, gran&me take turns in giving her a massage since all she can do is just lie face down all day. It has resulted in tired backs & stiff shoulders. Kido's defintely not helping much by coming home late even though he can comes home early. When he's home, he just watches the tv which just lets dad get even more pissed since his exams're coming.

As for me..haiish. How can I complain? when I know very well mom's feeling much worse & gran's so freaking tired too. She has to juggles between mom & the baby cousin of mine. I tries to rush home asap after sch each day but this freaking semester, all lessons ends late.

& I know I've been in a very PMS mood recently. Im so damn freaking sorry but all this life at home right now is seriously about to drive me nuts.

Mom,please get well soon.

Sunday, April 20, 2008
Last blogged @ 10:00 PM

Been tidying the house this morning. Grandma came over with cousin*ping liang* today. She's gonna stay over to take care of mom(& apparently us) after her op which is on tuesday. Mom's still freaking out.

The aunties&cousins&uncle came over for visit today too. Real sweet of them since its a once in a blue moon thing that they gathered over at my house.

Bought over some homemade goodies & angel sis got us a japanese cheescake :) NICE.lolx~ The folks& I had started preparing the stuff for mom's post-op 14days. Made a mental list of stuff(s) to do since mom's just gonna concentrate on relaxing so her eye can have the normal vision back.

Trying hard not to lose it when she gets all PMS on me.

I will tolerate.The worst part of hope is when it cheats you. One minute it gets you light & floaty then next it crushed you so much it hurts. I learnt this from the recent novel "the opposite of love".

School tmr.I am totally not looking forward to it with the turmoil at home now.lolx. Its not helping that mrTan insisted in squeezing calculus into my class. I am so not happy taking the class with 2E. even though ben dan is in the class. XP

heyy.school & our stuff are 2 different things- there's a line. No hard feelings but 2classes are too much. I must go on protest first thing the next morning.

zZz~ I gotcha go sleep. That is if the cousin allows me..that little mischeif ball is still vey happily awake playing. lolx.

Saturday, April 19, 2008
Last blogged @ 11:11 PM

GET KARL OH SOO JUNG - OST -SARANG HAN DA MYUN



GET KARL OH SOO JUNG - OST - KAN MI YUN (MARRY ME)

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PROM NIGHT



SUPERHERO MOVIE

Friday, April 18, 2008
Last blogged @ 9:57 PM

I've been thinking awfully lots lately. Please pardon me if I didnt give my 101% attention when you speaks. Life's indeed very unpredictable. With all the stuff back from the place I used to call home, mom & *ahem* very private family stuff happening all at the same time, it has indeed been hard to focus.



But life still have to go on, the sun still rises & sets, the time wont wait for me. I've got loads to do, loads of doubts to clear, loads of stuff to be wary of & loads of tears to cry. I am sorry for not able to hold back my tears today. Had those sudden random flashbacks again,it's been giving me creeps.



I suppose the only thing I can do is to keep up this rational calm front so that mom wont go bonkers totally coz she really freaked out at the hospital yesterday. & I am lucky to have this bunch of mates & GFs who expressed their concern regarding this.



No worries =) I'll be fine. I suppose everything'll work out one way or another in time to come. And dont mind me bottling up too much inside XP hahax.



I never felt the need to need you so much. Is this what they say sometimes you dont realise how important someone is till they're gone? Then I must be really lucky coz I lost you once & got you back again. I am problematic with only more problems adding onto my life as each day passes. lolx. but just to know that you'll be there for me anytime of the day is enough to make to me smile again. thanks~muackx :)

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http://chinese3.cari.com.my/myforum/viewthread.php?tid=1171401&extra=page%3D6

The following link show more reports about the fire in my hometown, Pantai Remis. Its the 2nd fire to happen lately. Tell me.

What's not to be devasted about? Houses burnt to ashes, a lifetime's worth of money&everything gone just like that?

What's not to be relieved? The fire started just behind grandma's house. We're just very very very lucky that the wind was blowing another direction.

So much to happen all at the same time. Give me a reason for my brain to remain sane.

Thursday, April 17, 2008
Last blogged @ 10:17 PM

I have to admit this, he sure gets my curiosity to know more about him. It beats the shit out of me to know that he has this splitting image of that retarded loser yet behaves skies apart like him. So this happens to get the ball rolling..but lets just stop at this. I dont want any wrong ideas going around & you never know when history's just going to repeat itself.

Anyway. Bad news been bombing me. I am freaked out- stressed out - pissed out. More than I can say, mom needs a major operation. She's more or less, getting paranoid. The op alone already costs more than a bomb plus the check-ups&stuff she went for today totally sucks. I really hate hospitals. The smell of it gave me goosebumps.

Plus the phonecall yesterday. It ruined the entire dinner. Im like so tangled up inside but this piece of news is pretty confidential. I hate this whole thingie going on & I hate it even more that I dunno who the hell can I tell.

Im tired.

Monday, April 14, 2008
Last blogged @ 8:53 PM

Did got into M&E course alright,mrTan was nice enough to put us girls in the same class-2C. Am really relieved that the asshole got into the piping class(2A) so I dont have to put up with his bullcrap ever again.

Hosted IT1C orientation with Jeremy&Randy. They're both nice guys especially Randy. He's interestingly really nice. He bought me a drink even though I said no.hahax :) thanks. It was a blast,i suppose. I am currently exhausted due to the very very packed activities. haiish. Hope tmr'll be going okay too.

MEED meeting after the orientation which was at about 5pm odd. Was feeling damn freaking tired & sticky le lo..lolx. That asshole look-alike who's call zhi xiong. Rmb his name coz I dont wanna keep referring him to the asshole look-alike. From now on,I shall see him as only zhi xiong and nothing else. He can draw.woot :) & seems really nice. but lets stop at here.

Mom needs to go GH for eye check up to decide if the operation will results in blindness. Its devasting enough & neither of us all wishes to think about the negative consequences.

This whole week's really all jammed up. Only one of me & 3 CCA stalls to tend to..heyy.I need to get a breather here. & Im really damn freaking sorry I've been neglecting you. seriously..I am..its just that Im really damn caught up now I cant get away.

I dont ask that you understand this whole thing coz I know you. I dont blame it if you think that I never care about you. Maybe I really sucks in expressing my concern or whatever. Its hard. Im sorry..really really really. Dont suppose you'll read my blog again but heyy. I miss you.

Just this week okay? Let me make it up next week. I promise.

Sunday, April 13, 2008
Last blogged @ 7:42 PM

~Friday~


Headed back to school at 9am for re@lwork. Did filing for the orientation thingie. Lucky batch of new rascals..lolx.they got the file with all the important stuff abt the sch plus a notebook&pen for completely free. And they're just gonna trash it somewhere. Oh well..its stupid but I managed to get some fresh cuts from those papers & files.

Anyway.sneaked in between breaks&stuff to check how's the MEED club meeting.& the first thing I saw when I opened the door was him. that asshole look-alike. only that now he's smiling at me & I was like frozen on the spot.

First thought was why is that asshole doing here? Thank god I managed to keep my cool & I rmb to smile as I walked in the room. Life's full of surprises. They asked me to take a shot with them, taufiq immediately filled me in the details for the last meeting. that asshole look-alike guy whose name's zhi xiong. ( i think ) designed the club logo & I was like " serious?!?!?! omg. wow"

It is embarrasing that I am over reacting but seriously I am beginning to think guys who can draw are becoming endangered in my life.lolx. Have to admit that the club's currently really busy & I am already feeling guilty for forgetting the previous meeting.

~Saturday~

Raining cats&dogs. Had fun with kido splashing around in the rain. Almost rotted at home while enjoying the k-drama Oh SUng Ju vs Karl. One more episode to go :)






~Sunday~

Went to work with my eyelids half-closed. It was boring today..really. Lots of ah-neh nehs went past & keep shooting glances at me. They seriously freaked me out. Dad sent me lunch which mom had cooked. hahax. Am feeling really blissful at that moment.

Been thinking abt far too much stuff last night. Received a call from msia saying that someone started a fire again. This time its really close to grandma's house. In fact,its jux behind. mom said we're lucky that the wind was blowing in another direction.

Grandma was in tears. Or so,I heard. I suppose tears should really come at this point of time. All of us had so much so much memories there. I spent my childhood happiest there. Grandma worked hard to provide for all her children there. Heard that quite a couple had passed away due to the fire. Its saddening.

AND. There's some major health problems going around the house lately. Its bad news for all & to find out at this time is a major blow for everyone. All I can say is I want & needs more money. Too much to say. Im tired. really.

ben dan.Im sorry that you had to read the past posts. I didnt meant it this way. I suppose whatever I says now wont really go inside your head. But really. I had long stopped thinking about that asshole. so please dont bring up his name again.

Thursday, April 10, 2008
Last blogged @ 9:24 PM

Karen came over at around 12pm plus. I slacked around till 1pm then we got to serious business. hahax. Was like so super tired & couldnt get my eyes from watching the korea drama Oh Sung Ju vs Karl :) Its nice & funny.hahax.

惡作劇2吻 is another drama Im currently crushing after. But I think the part 1 is nicer & the songs were also nicer lo. But in part 2. Jiro is very very cute :D He's sweet & he've got a hot bod. hahax.

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I am looking for this song. Its really nice.

Last blogged @ 8:59 AM

I saw a dead squashed frog on the way to school for the freaking bridge leader meeting. I had to host class IT 1C with this guy call Jeremy who's very nicely absent so now I dont even know how my freaking parthner'll look like. The meeting was super draaaagggyyy. It sorta annoys me actually. We just got to tried out the games we'll be hosting for the orientation thingie.

Met yvette aka the pig for lunch. Grabbed sushi&bento. Nice filling lunch I had in weeks.lolx. She was supposely to help me with the banner. But the darn popolar was upgrading some crap so I couldnt get the chalk & thus unable to draw.

So we walked around looking for shops that might be selling chalks including Lovely Land =P hahax.I dragged her there just so I can look at the very nice music box I've been eyeing for ages. anyway,I spotted a new music box which is the Disney's Cinderella with blue casing & lights.

It looks like a fairytale but I think the colours are kinda dull & it cost 79bucks.So I guess the first music bow which I lay my eyes on first is nicer,prettier,sweeter,cuter & cheaper. & most importanly, I really really fancied that.lolx.

Mom didnt cooked dinner,so we had it outside. I ate just alittle coz I was still feeling very full from lunch.Mom (who shouted that she'll not give a damn about me no matter how much I coughed since I refused to refrain from cold drinks) said she's gonna make me bird's nest. wahahax :) seriously.bird's nest cost a bomb okay!

The shot below is the recent bottle she bought. Its of superior qualitly so its expensive. At least tads wad she told me la. Its 150bucks!!!!!!!!!

Worked on the banner last night. I hope it looks okay coz it was sorta hard to draw on cloth. haiish. Karen&rach may be coming over later..more later.

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The gathering aka the chalet on last saturday was indeed a blast. Credits of the shots below goes to yvette. Ziyi brought his girlfriend,winnie along. Everything wasnt going very smoothly but I suppose it was still more or less fun. lolx.

Especially the first night where we girls attempted to shower w/o closing the doors while the guys were away playing pool.hahax.It was hilarious we got freaked out. All thanks to Jes who kept going on about the sadako coming out from the tv la.

Anyway.Too much to blog about.Still some shots not uploaded but nvm. We'll meet up again soon right? :) Alan siad he misses us.lolx.

Friday, April 4, 2008
Last blogged @ 11:06 PM

Gathering tmr =) meeting up the usual gang for the chalet.Was excited but the thought of sharing the toilet with the guys REALLY puts me off. lolx. yvette,you better say something! I still have not decide if I were to tied up my hair & what clothes will I wear & what should I bring.. lolx. darn.I really sucks in packing stuff..always get chaotic for every little thing =.=

Anyway.today met him up. was a sweet sweet sweet morning :) I cant believe Im saying this but heyy..only once in a blue moon do I do get mushy okayy..lolx. Hadnt see him for like 2weeks & missing him like hell though I dream of Jiro Wang instead of him :P hahax.

anyway.main point is I finally "sorted things out".. clarify the stuff& *wow* for once,he's really listening damn intentively to whatever I said.

Had a fun time teasing him about the past..lolx.you dunno how bhb he can gets =.= &he ruined the whole romantic atmosphere by burping right next to my ear! It was hilarious..but heyy.I do wonder why is he my boyfriend at times.

He got himself so damn freakish nuts by laughing out loud about the fahrenheit dream. he said they were all begging him to bash them up especially Jiro wang.. grrr. I swear if I dunno this guy by the name of garry,I'll bloody well jux give him a whack on his dense head =P

Met kido for lunch.With the folks away,I just realised why mom's always so paranoid about us. lolx.there are indeed loads to worry about your kids. woke up at 6am just to wake kido up & couldnt get a wink of sleep since the alarms started going off at 6.15am-6.45am-7.00M-8.00m. Its annoying that we have this many alarms at home. seriously.

oh well.looks like after e chalet,I have to start working on the culinary club banner fast. & darn..the banner sure is HUGE & LONG. wth. I dont think im able to draw it nice on it. haiish. Just thinking about that brings me to the Olvls art..a total failure. wa kao.

Getting zzz~still need to finish up mopping e floor. Nights. hope the chalet'll be fun & the guys will get lost when we need to shower :)

Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Last blogged @ 10:49 PM

Been working at Cityhall QMAX shop these days. One word: exhausting. No wholesales job is ever easy. anyway.been caught up with work.was slogging like hell at workplace due to the coming of new stocks& many many new orders.

Plus adrain's wife was in labour so I had to manage the shop myself for 2days which is difficult since I haven work there for ages & loads of stuff no price code+the boxes of new stocks are damn freaking heavy. my back's beginning to ache already.

Anyway *forward* ITE examination results out today~!!! ohmyfreakingass.My GPA improve wor :) I am very very very happy coz for the first time in my almost 18years of life, I got all As for my exam modules. wa kao. I was screaming&jumping around the house jux now. My folks are happy especially mom :) wee :) wee:)

okay.but I have to try to contain my joy coz he did not get "very good" results compared to last semester.so this afternoon was really busy with phonecalls. lol. he said I didnt console him & when I tried to by encouraging him & using the "there's still room for improvement" "next time in class mux more guai" thingie..all he did was to retort each sentence =.= so much for my consolation huh. ben dan.

oh well.since he wasnt in a good mood,I shall ignore everything & tolerate :) lolx.he said he was having cramps.the first thing I tot was that he's having the same thing as me right now :P so dotx hor..lolx. its getting late & Im really really tired. Will posted up the latest shots I took later on.

More next time :) congrats to rach&yasier- they got 4pointers again :)