Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Last blogged @ 8:23 PM

Hey.I cant bear to imagine you calling me baby or those stupid freaking sweet nothings.Just the thought gives me goosebumps & I really wanna puke.I put up with those coz you insisted when we WERE together.But hey, look at us now.

Am calling you this the last time.coz I want you to know how much I went through all because of you.I'm telling you.Nobody gets away scott free after hurting me.So much for saying I'm naive. Of course,yes I am.but hey,sometimes acting dumb isnt a bad thing.

Baby. Its payback time.

Monday, October 29, 2007
Last blogged @ 8:28 PM

Giddy spells attack yesterday.I hate them. BIWA* haiish.

Dad&Mom combined forces super duper boring lectures cum naggings.haiish.

Entrepeunership lessons sucks super big time.Really boring.haiish.

My class aint the least cooperative in placing their books orders.haiish.

Some losers making things difficult for my friend.no comments.haiish.

My health's not improving.so much for attempting to go on the stupid freaking glucose drip.haiish.

My brain's thinking far too much.killing brain cells.haiish.

I dunno what to do for so many stuff.haiish.

I still have to face him every single day.& pretend he cant hurt me.haiish.

Sunday, October 28, 2007
Last blogged @ 12:39 PM

I dunno if its considered a long time since the incident.There seems to be no suitable words to descibe the way I'm feeling now.I dunno what failed me to mislooked those things you had.I dunno what makes me trusted you so much.I dunno.I suppose I dunno lots of stuff.Perhaps this is why it all happened.

Been thinking lots lately.Especially about the thing about Garry.I cant define the look in his eyes everytime he looks at me.Cant define lots of stuff.Or am I just trying to pretend that I dunno anything? when in fact,I am all very much well aware of all the stuff that's going around me. But you see,I'm at a loss of what to do. Tads why I'm trying to pretend that I dunno.

So haiish,ben dan.Stop trying to get an answer out of me okay.& quit thinking about the past. R you like gay or sth? Xp always asking stuff about him.Lets just leave things as it is.Dun think too much.Tads what you told me. :) will kill brain cells de lea.

ANyway,I found out something about myself lately.It s sorta scary so I dun suppose i'll wanna blog about it.Maybe when I have more details ba.haiish.


*why am I always feeling tired?*

Saturday, October 27, 2007
Last blogged @ 12:42 PM

Entrepeuneurship lessons are making me hate Mr Foo.Left ACDDS class late then went for our break,then headed down to the printing room to place the orders for the books.& of all times,it took ages this time coz the aunty said her boss don't accept folded plastic notes since the bank doesnt accepts it either. I went blank then dotx! If the bank's gonna be so fussy over these stupid plastic notes then why on holy hell did the government invented those? =.= dotx.

Anyway,ziyi&shuyi came over to my sch coz shuyi has to attend some talk for female althetics. so well,the funny thing is: we all know Yi Feng. *who?* the guy from my culinary club & the guy who always suan me.wahahax,such a small world.AND even garry knows him too.dotx.how small can the world be?

so well,anyway anyway.Acc garry to grandlink to play pool.yea ziyi&shuyi came too.something sorta happen while we're suppose to go there but *well*no comments,lets say its a small tiff & its solved.but some ben dan*ahem*was observing everything while asking me not to be so kpo =.=

hmm..so well,many many stuff happened.& garry's been asking me really wierd questions. haish.okay,i guess i'll end here for now.got more to blog abt actually but am just too tired to go into details now.

ta.da~

Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Last blogged @ 8:50 PM

Alright.School's okay.The lessons are all so far doing fine.Except for entrepeuneurship.Its totally d-r-y.God,is there really such a boring lesson on earth known to mankind? =.=

Mr Foo can drills on about marketing&money&blah blah other business related stuff for a whole 2 hours. without any pause/breaks/whatever.It bores me out.totally seriously honestly.I bet nobody really listens.& I wonder why he love talking to the class with his ass facing me
*note: I'm sitting in the front row,but he just loves going to the back to talk*

hmm.school lessons are so far okay,in logical terms.I sent that ba bu an sms ytd to ask him to leave me alone.*thanks rach* for helping me to send it coz I hate to say this but i really cant bring my stupid fingers to hit the send button.

so anyway.he was obviously trashing it on me this morning. SCENE ONE: mutant complained that he gave me the money but I have not yet order & that its resulting that he cant study coz he didnt have the book.

PUH-LEASE.ask that guy to boil his head.what bullcrap.so anyway,I was abt to talk when this guy by the name of EJ. YES,that ba bu.who has to speak. said that i was not doing my responsibility & all those crap.

excuse me? Being the class treasurer doesnt means that I own him.He's clearly being such a childish freakish moron asshole jerk faggot ba bu.I bet he's piss with my sms & he's just trying to trash it all on me.coz the moment i walked into the class with rach,he had that stupid look on his face.

God damn him.its so super duper ultra childish.& I don't give a damn okay.If he thinks that i'm neglecting my duties or whatever.Mr smarty pants,please.I don't mind letting you take my freaking place.Coz neither do I enjoy going around,asking people to pay up so i can order those freakinng damn books.think its easy?

screw you.damn you.you are really the worst moron ba bu I ever seen.RIDICULOUS. biwa.

biwa.biwa.biwa.biwa.biwa.biwa.biwa.AND STOP PUSHING MY HEAD. keep those fithly hands away from my head.you got absolutely no right to touch any single strand of hair of me.

coz this's the last straw.really.I mean it.If you ever touch me,i dont care if its just a strand of hair.I'll scream your head off & lodge a complain against you for sexual harrassement.

I mean it.

Monday, October 22, 2007
Last blogged @ 7:03 PM

Rachel& I went to collect the class MEDDS books. & darn..it sure was heavy.but hey,we can handle it,i guess.what we couldnt handle was,or rather what I couldnt handle was when i dumped the heavy chunk on the table,this guy by the name of EJ came over&took the book & ta da~he walked away like heck.



Get this point down.I am the class treasurer.I am responsible for collecting the money & ordering the books we need & making sure the right people who paid gets their book. SO if this moron here just took the darn book without even asking or even notice the freaking annoyed look on my face,what the hell am i suppose to do if the whole class do this as well? Its gonna be hectic,dun you agree?



So hey.let me swallow this little anger of mine.BUT back to the issue of 65cents. You see,the MEDDS book costs $10.65 but apparently my teacher got it wrong & told the class its $10 & so here I go again,playing the annoying girl who goes around demanding the rest of the payment to be made so I can order asap.



& then it so happens that EJ isnt arnd & Karen decided to do him the favor by paying it for it first.so well,which is jolly well what happened that resulted that moron to be able to get his book by today.But that moron actually has the cheek to say "huh? its only 65cents."



anyway,the point is he refused to pay up in the end.& when I told him abt it he has the freaking cheek to reply : so? Hey,come on.we're not talking abt the money here.its about the attitude. i mean,pardon me.Karen did him the favor & here he is,without any word of gratitude but just flinging his rotten attitude on our faces?! Thats just far too much.



So here I am.Bitching very much about him,i don't deny.coz I might snap any moment if he still touches any single strand of me tmr.we're over.that moron dumped me through an email & now he's still ruffling & shoving my head as if we're still on close terms.I mean,hey.didnt he heard anything called the silent treatment?



& so while i tries to control my fingers to stop bitching about him via hitting the keyboard so vigorously,part of me says im stating facts.okay.I gtg: mom's screaming her head off.

Saturday, October 20, 2007
Last blogged @ 10:35 PM

Okay. I don't know & I don't wish to know. Not now,not at this moment anymore. Lets put it this way: I am selfish. Very very very. I've been hurt & I am very very very afraid to get hurt again. So lets take things slow okay?

I trusted him. You know, even when the world seems to be turning against me. I had refused to heed anyone's advice. Including my very own instincts. WHY? Because he has this very nice way of making me feel guilty. Always. very very very guilty I was indeed.

So hey. tell me,how am I suppose to know who's telling the truth right now? All those sweet nothings. those promises. they were once a fairytale but now a nightmare. I am sorry. I don't know how the hell should I put it. But hey,lets not rush stuff okay. I believe we have plenty of time ahead.

& I so do need so much more time.I am just very very very happy you're still here. even though all the shit you've been through & darn.look at us. we come such a long way & went around so many rounds to clear out all those misunderstandings.

ben dan. why didnt you said all these earlier? I don't know what to do. & I know very well you're unsure of what you should do either. but hey. like i said,no rush. I still have flashbacks every now & then. & sometimes,just sometimes..once in a blue moon.I feel myself back to the days when you first broke that heart of mine.

I am never sure of so much stuff. so many things. we wont rush stuff right? Its been so long. I think. anyway, I am happy with the way we are now :)

Just give me more time.

Thursday, October 18, 2007
Last blogged @ 6:05 PM

I think I'm getting better.Finally..a change from what I've been lately.

Let me fill you in: I wake up at 6.30am every morning for school & tries to get through everyday with what seems like all the energy I can gather then go home,popped my pill in then I go kiss my bed till dinnertime. Which after that I popped the pill again then the cycle goes on as I kiss my bed till the next morning.

So anyway,I'm feeling better today.Didnt popped any pills when i came back from school today coz I'm tired of sleeping.hahax.its like wasting my life away~ so well.I have to highlight one thing about ytd.which was someone..um,ba bu aka 1408 came & sat next to me during ACDD lesson.

He couldnt see from the back & MrTan was droning on abt the calculations he was teaching on the board & ta da~of all places,he had to kneel next to my desk& copied.On top of that,he even dragged a chair over when MrTan said its going to be a long period of teaching.

& so while all the time he's pretending like nth happened,I was trying my very very best not to lose my cool.DAMN IT.His scent's so super duper ultra strong.It brings back those flashbacks again & it hurts big time.God.Please tell this guy to stay at least 1m from me from this moment.

So anyway,heck.since its over & its a very very good thing he's not here for class today. =) Um. well.today was okay.had a 1.5hr lunch break X) wee~ Garry wanted to send me home today. again.& again & again..I told him its okay,I can go home myself.

Which again,speaking of garry.Till now,I'm like still in my la la land mood.finding it hard to believe that garry.GARRY?!?!?!?!?!?! so right now,its certainly worth to ponder over the things& stuff that ben dan has been saying&doing lately. X) He really really can amaze ppl.

Anyway,I have to end here.coz its dinnertime & I'm freaking cold so I think I'll go kiss my bed soon. =)

Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Last blogged @ 4:17 PM

Okay.I am sick&there's no school today since annoucements were made that my school won the so called havard global award for dunno wad mechanical engineering thingie.So here I am, deciding to tell my grandmother story about the recent things that happened.

Job has been fun&all.but I am now left sick;cold&flu.cough&sore throat.Darn..i hate having the flu..it always takes forever to recover de. =.= so I have to pop pills & then when the medicine hits in,I kiss my bed.waa..like so super duper long never had such a goodnight sleep le lo.

Garry helped me buy my thumbdrive liao.cool.its san disk de,black in colour& has this push in/out feature.Um,speaking of garry.he really really really amazes me.like recently he sent me home.I mean,its like,whoa.wow.garry?! omg.okay,its unexpected.totally.& the stuff he've been telling me. ~~~ god,cant we just turn back the time? anyway.its a good thing we're okay now. and well..we have decided to...um,how to you said it,take things slow.

Next.Ytd-first day of sch.It was okay..met rachel&karen then while crossing the road.I saw him & we all burst out laughing coz he's carrying a hand bag.I meant those bags with straps that you can only carry with your hands.Rachel said it looks like a plastic bag. X)

Had a new timetable..now all my classes starts at 8am. WAAA~ sian. must wake up early liao. New teachers for new modules. New modules're difficult X( especially air-con drafting.it requires lots of calculations & physics. wa kao. x_x

Anyway.I think I have lost my voice.I cant speak loud& hey..i cant pronounce words properly. X( haiish.heavy downpour here now.gtg.I feel so groggy again.

Monday, October 15, 2007
Last blogged @ 7:59 PM

First day of school for the new semester today.I am totally tired.seriously. slept at arnd 11pm last night.Job was fun.It goes like this:There's an order.we runners take turn to make the deliveries.will travel around by van provided.the van drivers are all friendly & nice.Here's some inside scopes =)

Jason(a guy I know frm work)create this turtle with salt.We were slacking in the crew room waiting for deliveries.



I saw one of the staff mixing the condiments for his fries,so I decided to do some experiment. Mix grape jam,sweet chile&mayo for my mc chicken X) It tastes great.

Dipped fries in this: mayo. sweet chili. garlic chili. curry sauce. the results? thumbs up.it taste exotic. totally.try it. *if you've got the chance X)

Played dumb with Jason while waiting~ we can slack when there's no orders. X)
So well,overall.It has been a nice & fun experience. The staff there were friendly especially my managers.so cool.& the riders're actually mostly students working part time de lea.We get two meals free.woot~ XD now im sick of mac le.hahax.

so well well,it was tiring la.but quite okay ba.the first night..garry met me after work.He sent me home.Its like so......whoa. waa..anyway.I'm sick now.Feel so groggy after taking the medicine. Long story abt garry& me. maybe i'll say another time. Gtg.

zzz~

Friday, October 12, 2007
Last blogged @ 8:37 PM

Wee again&again =) went out with hp today.Wanted to have lunch at pizza hut but darn.they dun serve set lunches during the eve of public holidays. =.= so we ate at KFC's instead.Had fun tpday,missed her so so so much okay. X) I think i blabbered like mad to her about all my updates. X) *sorry,sweet.I talk far too much when im excited*


So,okay.Took this shot in bus65. cool. Safra Tampines. & my school's just next to it. :))



Took some shots together in the bus. =)

The view shot from the front seat of double decker bus65. *hp went,"gassp.like this also want to take picture..* hahax. X) yes,sweet.I take pics of almost anything.For memories de lea~!

Okay,photos're not in order. *oops,sorry* this's hp eating.she's trying to do some medication with the piece of chicken before eating.wahahax X)

"Okay,stop staring at me.I'm gonna eat le la." X)

Went to the arcade.Played the ocean hunter,as usual. =) Its so exciting everytime.totally. Attempted to take a shot in the arcade,but hey guess what?! This guy playing pool nearby accidentally poked me in the butt!

wa piang~~~ so humilating for me. X( he did apologised though.& I had one of my nervous laughing fit again.haiish. god. don't you just love making me embarrassed? =.=

Overall,it was an enjoyable day.Since holidays started,didnt really went out like this.I feel so alive*dotx..hahax* maybe coz of that incident.but i'm elated that i'm doing fine now. maybe even feeling great X)

P.S: those captions are false. XP

Thursday, October 11, 2007
Last blogged @ 10:13 AM

wee =) had a nice,comfy sleep last night.I think I even had a smile plastered to my face. we had alittle chat last night.and hey,some things really dun change de wor.He still asked those type of questions =.= where got ppl like that ask de lo..

Well.some changes in work.There have shifts,so i traded one shift since i guess she wanna work with ziyi.oh well,it'll mean earning lesser money but well,nvm.I guess..since more or less,this'll be a working experience.

haissh~has not yet buy a thumbdrive. x_x must get it asap.okay,end here for now.

i'm so bored.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Last blogged @ 8:55 PM

Was packing my table&shelves last night.The world seems to come tumbling down when I saw them.Flashbacks are hurtful.Dude,did anyone knows that? I seems like a person who suffered from memory loss.& every now and then,I get random flashbacks that hurts me like hell.



I cleared out a space at the bottom of my closet.Just for you,just for us.Just for those memories you gave me & the times where I fell for your promises.I re read the cards you made,the letters you wrote.I re touched the stuff you made,re count the hearts you folded.



Everything we had.Came back to me so fast,so clear.It hurts.totally.& I cant believe the damn tears fell again.But this'll be the last time,you ba bun.I had everything we used to had stashed away.Hidden.Buried.No damn precious tears of mine's gonna fall for you again.Never ever.



Thanks for letting me know we're done.This song is so sweetly specially dedicated to you:



Don't want you back

by backstreet boys





You hit me faster than a shark attack

You saw my picture on theBackstreet's Back, alright

And you were more than just a pretty face

But how you fooled me,

I'm still amazed baby

But I should have known that I would be

Another victim of your sexuality

But now we're done and over with

Don't, don't want you back



Don't want you back

Cuz you're no good for me,

I knowThat's all I can say

Don't want you back

Forgive my honesty but you gotta go

I don't want you back



You started going out with so-called friends

But I was blind and so I lost all common sense

But there were things that made me realize,

realizeLike all the hundred no, thousand lies



Baby, don't bother telling me your reasons why

Just let us sing this story 'bout you and I

Don't want you back

That's all I know (don't want youback, don't want you back)

All I can say

Don't want you back

You know you gotta go

Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Last blogged @ 6:03 PM

Okay.I sms garry last night.it was random.totally.but you konw,sometimes..you just feel the urge to & so there i go asking him a 'what seems to me very important' question: Am I bad?
coz you see,i wonder if rachel's still upset/avoiding me.

Its quite sad actually.I am missing her. She has turned down quite a couple of invites to join us hanging out lately. X( & Jenson said i'm alittle mean.coz i kept saying he's nuts.& blah blah..you know,that guy.

So well,he replied! whoa.wasnt expecting that actually.but anyway..what really surprises me was what he said in some of the msgs.*confidential* umm..you can say its good stuff. X)

Alright,giddy spells kicking in.Gtg.stop here for now.


p.s: suddenly i feel so sentimental.i miss lots of ppl.haiish~my girlfriends..anyone missed me? =)

Monday, October 8, 2007
Last blogged @ 12:16 PM

Last last night,I couldnt sleep again.I found myself poundering over the wonders of the universe.Nah,just kidding.I was thinking abt 1408.Yea,again.well.I was curious & my head refused to listen to me.So I picked up my hp & asked him two questions:

One: Is he& the new girlfriend getting along fine?

In which,he replied extremely fast.I sent.I snapped mh hp shut.A few nano seconds later,He replied "yes :)"

Two: Is his health getting better?

In which,he took a few moments to replied"yes:)now no need jabs le lea:)"

MY CONCLUSION: He dumps me,got a new gf,enjoying every moment of his life,& m*miralces of miracles*his health improved tremendously.So does that make me some sort of jinx or what? And am I suppose to be glad that he's still willing to see me as a friend & that his mom didnt ring me up to call me a stupid bitch that gave her darling baby son misery?

Oh puh lease.ba bun.bi chou sou.In which,I read each sms with a surprisingly calm smile.Well, you guys curious abt what i replied? X) I replied: experienced.nice to hear that.biwa. *biwa=I hate you in korean*Okay.well,you see,in the past,he simply like to put me in misery whenever he smsed me some crap in japanese.coz he knows very well i dun know any of those crap.So hey, I'm just being kind enough to give him a taste of his medicine. X)

Okay.anyway,this post isnt about him.Its about Ryan*.( frm my sch) & so I admit,was feeling upset over those stupid msgs but at least it really jerk up my senses that he's a ba bun.& so I dunno,I just thought of Ryan* & i sent him a sms.In which,*surprise*he called me a few moments later.

Whoa.totally for me okay.he called from china.Okay then we talked.then chatted.then laughed. & I certainly do feel so much better *thanks alot,ryan* & he still remembered all those stuff I told him.Like for example,the day 1408 dumped me. 14sep07.hey..no offence,but why does he remembers it so clearly? hahax..feel as if he's the one that 1408 dumped.& blah blah..

Its just strange why I do think of him whenever I feel down.Maybe coz he's nice to talk to & he can be so funny at times X) & I am craving for pizza hut's chicken ole baked rice.totally. T.T

Stop my blabbering here for now =) oh ya,one more thing.currently obessed with reading novels & watching korean drama [ cafe prince ].Its cool.totally.not those boring long soapy crying crap. This's more lively & funny.Quite short.I'm abt to finished watching soon.hahax =) mates,if u hv e time,check this drama out.Heard that its out in youtube already.

Friday, October 5, 2007
Last blogged @ 5:08 PM

Too much going on my mind.Wasnt everything under control? whatever happened? I don't know.I have been thinking a great deal lately.Its surprising I don't grow any white hairs.dotx. *choy* Okay.Didnt know where to sort my thoughts out except here,of course. X)

First thing. Jenson. Okay,fine.this's my fault.For even calling him up in the first place. curiousity sure kills the cat =.= so well,we talked over the phone a couple of times & blah blah.I just see him as this talking mate.But apparently,things only got complicated when he said he likes me. which is alittle on the bullcrap side,since we barely even know each other for two weeks. I don't need another bombshell,mate. =.=

So well,okay.I did reject him.I guess.I didnt said it in a "hey you're rejected" way,but i told him its impossible & I am still getting over that guy.Yea,that guy.So well,I am heeding vet's advice to ignore him.his sms&some of his calls.The thing is,*sry to be blunt*I dun think his english's very good or either that,I'm having communication breakdown here.

He sorta thinks too much abt the concern that friends gave one another. =.= I mean,seriously.
Well,i suppose he got pissed with me. X) since he called & I was really cold& talked in this monotone. hahax..okay,heck.

Next next,that guy.I dont know why I am handling it all so cool.Dude,someone should have got me a role for playing cool,coz i think i'll totally play it real nice.We smsed ytd.It was all crap & stuff until a part that went:

me: you're kiddy :)
him: you're baby :)

I went EMERGENCY! UNABLE TO BREATHE PROPER.MEMORIES FLOODING IN LIKE HELL! So,I must heed vet's advice not to talk to him for some time.

Last blogged @ 9:46 AM

KOH HOOI SAN.wake up wont you? Fantasy dreams are fine.Daydreams are fine.Imaginations are fine.But anything that involves him is NOT FINE. :@ where's your pride? huh,where? where is your anger? where is your hurt?

Haven you been miserable enough? Hasn't he given you enough reasons to cry? Can you stop being so dumb&stupid&naive? God,you're driving me nuts.literally.I dunno why you still miss him.OPEN YOUR FREAKING EYES.He dumped you through a pathetic stupid email.He had so much in you right? Well,its over.Like it or not,he's history.He loved you.past tense.& maybe even never at all.

All this while,he's just trying you.STUPID ASSHOLE.you're being a replacement.that girl's.IS that you what you wanna be? I DUN THINK SO.Forget him.Keep your posture.He might have been your everything& you might have your heart shattered.But hey,he didnt take your dignity away.

Don't you dare even worry about him.again.he's perfectly healthy.alive&kicking.AND GET REAL ya? If anything really happens to him,you're no longer needed.There's her.

STML stupid mind.Have you forgotten? No matter how much you wanna hold on to those sweet happy times,its over.I repeat,ITS OVER.

*if u do think of him again* plx read this post.

Thursday, October 4, 2007
Last blogged @ 11:08 AM

Wee again =) finally convinced mom to let me try the job out.wahahax X) willbe working at tiong bahru there area with ziyi&shuyi as runners on 12/10 to 14/10. Job scope: delivers mac orders to respective units.sth like those bikers who delivers food.but we dun ride bikes*aww X(* & will hv a van to take us arnd instead.( will be sorta working as a team in 3s) sounds sorta fun to me since i didnt tried it before.

Pay's low though.Its $3/hr. 11 paid hours daily. $1.5/delivered trip.1 hour break daily.& a $5.7 meal for us daily. umm..sounds okay with me.Just didnt like the dress code; white polo tee,black pants&black shoes. =.= so ma fan..guess i'll hv to buy these ba.I dun wear polo tees de lo.dun own any black shoes(unless u count my boots) =.= dotx. Have an old pair of balck pants..but will have to see ba. =/ its real baggy.& covered with lint.

Anyway,will be heading there at 10 oct with Z&S to check out the place & stuff.Meet the manager & learn how to log in blah blah...have another briefing.Looking forward. =) so mates, rmb to call for mac delivery more okay? X)

" Hey you,glad you're enjoying your life there.Maybe it was all a mistake in the first place.we should have never get together.But not much pont in crying over spilled milk huh? you have not change much.Still so dramatic =.= & full of cheeky crap. :) oh well,see you next next monday too."

Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Last blogged @ 7:24 PM

Had an interview today at International plaza at 4pm.Was suppose to meet ziyi&shuyi at 3.45pm but apparently,I was late.At 2.35pm,I am still not showered,not ready.So while I was showering hastily,my hp rang. *darn* good thing kido's home,coz he came banging the toilet door with it.He screamed," Its EJ!"

It was noisy in the toilet.with the water splashing&me making a commotion as I try not to slip on those soapy floors.But I scrambled to hide behind the door & open it a crack to take it.& so I didnt hear wrongly afterall.It was him.

Him calling for the results.How to & stuff.not very surprising,I am like an information counter to him.Well,more or less.& so I kept my cool & try to keep my tone flat.But it is clearly not very possible coz *as usual* he went dramatic when I told him that he'll need his password to log in.

& anyway,he called 3-4times.one,just to asked me how to click&stuff..so well,he told me aloy got 2.5 & exclaimed that he cant believe he got so low,in which i have to say,i did replied him in a very dry&flat tone: Well,not surprising,he always skip classes. X)

ANYWAY*re Wind*( back to the shower part sms )
me: I screamed coz I was in the shower when you called.

him:woo..sexy :) kido came in?

me:oh.you fixed your phone.huh?not really,jux to pass me my hp.

him:Oh :) ok ok.He must have like go in and bath with you. :) lolx

me:NO.excuse me? =.= you dumb horny straw brain.I jux open e door wide enough for the hp.

him: He could have peeked :)

me: hell,no.pig.there's sth was we call a towel :)

him:lolx. No sense of shame towel only :)

me: aloha,I was in e shower when you called.I was still dripping wet when i answered your call. hmph.

him: Ouh:) so sweet of you:) hahaha :)

me: duh :) hahax.


Alright.How stupid is that? But im quite glad with myself that I didnt shot him those caustic insults I had in mind.That'll be too childish right? =) see this? This's what i meant about me being a good actor.Its so nice to play pretend.sometimes you get so engrossed,you forgot about the real you.the real feelings.like now.we're just casual mates.nothing happened.we're jux mates.

*garry should learn how to pretend.otherwise,it'll all be too awkward.*

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Engineering Drafting: B

Electrical Principles & Drafting: A

Engineering Mathematics: B

Customer Service: S

Communication Skills: A

WEE=) I am quite pleased with my results.Especially maths.Yesh..for once,I met my own expectations right on the dot.

Thinks that i'll have to buck up more on my autocad thingie. =/ Good thing com skills got an A,was practically hell for all of us working on the puppets&play. ^^


CONGRATS TO RACHEL~!
She got all As.& yes,I am showing her off coz she got 4pointer. =) wee=)

Well,still..we all cant be too complacent.I have to be real good everyday to keep my results like this or have it higher.I wonder if its possible for me to scored a 4pointer. oh well,i am targetting for 3.75/3.8 for my next gpa.=)

Wish me luck mates.wahahax..

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Went swimming with karen yesterday at tampines swimming complex.It was really hot again but we had fun splashing aroung in the pool.Not many people since its weekdays & so the pool was quite empty & nice.we have more space to goof arnd in the waters. =)

Here's a sneak peek of the changing rooms.I think bedok should renovate theirs too to make it look like this.This's pretty cool.

We managed to capture a few shots when we got out of the pool.Its for memories but we're sorta shivering so only a few shots looks okay.Both of us got a little tan X)


After our shower,took som shots again.Got totally no idea why i looked so sick.*note*my lips are very very pale.

Monday, October 1, 2007
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Rachel's still at it.I should have known =.= so much for trying to be honest.Okay,yea.I am a bitch.*maybe* I blogged bad abt her.totally honestly seriously,no doubt abt tad.I was mean & whoa,such a nice liar.

& then things change.stuff happened.the unexpected came unexpectedly.she's someone who you may call loud.sometimes she might be cranky.but heck.sometimes she's nice.just plain nice.& you'll grow to like her.

so,no idea if she'll read this.but for the dunno how many freaking times,I am gonna say I'm sorry.

crap..i got everything all messed up.

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1st october 2007.Its children's day & Kido has school off.Hurray for him =.= HELL for me.I seriously need to rant on complaints here.Kids nowadays are no longer those sweet innocent naive faces.They learn the most ridiculous crap from their peers & seriosuly think that having a downright bad attitude's cool.totally.

Kido woke up in a hell mood,coz he has tuition from 2pm-7pm later on & dad gave him only 5bucks.He kicked up a racket about too little money & demanded that I gave him2bucks. I am trying to be a good sister here but heck,I TOTALLY SERIOUSLY HONESTLY cant stand any freaking human beings calling me a BITCH.I am ultra super duper sensitive to this downright hell bullshit word.

So he goes screaming: Hey bitch,give me 2 dollars.

Me: No way.Papa gave you $5 liao & he said cant give you so much money.

Him: ( screams,curses ) fuck you la,bitch.I tuition from 2 to 2 eat what shit.Give me $2!!!! you fucker bitch.damn you.go and die la. ( cry,scream,punches,hits,curses )

---------Conclusion: I did gave him $2 coz he refuses to get his ass out of the house & he kept bombarding our mom(who's working)with phonecalls. Anyway,my point is this an example of the kids nowadays.MAN~If looks could kill,I'm pretty sure that kido'll be the first kid to die under my stare. =.=

It was my attempt to rationalize the dichotomy between personal emotions & the pressure of morden day living.

SO ANYWAY,this morning..I made abit of french toast.It actually tastes pretty good. [tip*be generous with the sugar* ] I decided to capture some nice shots of my masterpiece =))




& also,the not so glamorous side of the french toast..due to my retarted reaction while attempting to flip the bread over. X( but oh well,as it goes: Those incapable of making mistakes are not capable of doing anything. =) Nice consolation quote for myself.

SO anyway anyway,I've been lulling over my thoughts for an awfully long time.I wont pretend anymore.I am looking forward to school. *sorta* It is gonna be awkward&sad&pathetic that I am going to see him * or hopefully maybe not* BUT heck.Nobody dumps me thru a freaking email & gets away scott free.

=) SAN IS GOING STRIKE BACK!!! WEE (=