Thursday, February 28, 2008
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Tmr is a special day. 2008 is a leap year with february having 29 days. It only happens every 4 years. I didnt know this till a friend told me. Seems pretty meaningful huh? An extra day this year :)

Been busy this week. ENTREP project is driving me almost nuts, with the proposal due this friday & the presentation slides due on 04/03/08. ARGH. And MEDDS theory is like damn freaking difficult.Mr low only tell us about this recently. wa kao. the exams are approaching damn fast & Im like even more anxious+nervous+afraid I might just flunk everything.

Okay.so I am trying really hard to split up my time now. There are SC duty, meetings for this & that, helping MrTan for the MEED ceremony, bridge leader this & that. My GFs, work, family gatherings & of course..him la XP

Anyway, the main thing is today: attended the MEED ceremony. MrTan said we're exclusively invited (yes,us..the next batch of fresh bridge leaders). Well,sneaked out midway with rach coz it was getting alittle too boring =.= hahax. So then while we sat through the photos slides&stuff. we noticed the guy helping with the laptop thingie LOOK WAY TOO MUCH LIKE EJ.

His side view,back view, the size..wa kao.especially the hairstyle. & when he stay expressionless. I swear upon my life, for the moment, I thought I saw the retarted loser. lol. okay. It was freakish scary. So me&Rach kept shooting looks at him coz the alike-ness is almost 99.99%.

So,like wise..the difference between this EJ look-alike & that retarded loser is noticeable. For the record, at least he dont look so damn stuck up at first glance. Their smile is worlds apart difference. This EJ look-alike smiles more naturally,with more joy expressed. Plus, for his brownie points, he plays the guitar. Pretty good,i have to admit.*ben dan said guys who play guitar are so gay. from what i look like it, he should very much stuff my feet into his eyes. hmph.*

Alright.I shouldnt have observed too much. but the ceremony was pretty much boring & this look-alike thingie caught my attention. Had mac for lunch with my GFs+Jia le. This guy is damn goofy okay.lol..fun to be around with.hahax..funny.

Went to City Plaza with the GFs after that.Had alittle chat with my ex ex ex boss,elaine.lol. she permed her hair,looks nicer though. Of course,met Jess jiejie who cut her hair into a chinadoll bob. Suits her though,in fact,much better than her previous style :)

Anyway,have to mention this crazy aunty who's the freakish csot sot boss of this comestics shop. Was looking at the disney pooh bear spray thingie, wanted to know how it smells like.so I attempted to squirt some into the cap itself when she, standing at least 10feet away practically shouted at me " HELLO! NO TESTING. NO TESTING." She even point with the stupid phone's antenna. I could see it wobbling & shivering away at me.

Nasty freakish experience.I will never ever buy anything from this shop. Not that I intend to anyway. And the next time she caught my eye. I''ll make sure she sees me giving her the what the fu*k are you looking at you mean old bitch look :)

Okay.Have to end here though I would very much like to go on with my grandmother story. But entrep presentation slides are at sake. Miss me when Im gone :)

Sunday, February 24, 2008
Last blogged @ 9:35 PM

HORROR. the EXAMS are coming. Very very soon. & though my teachers seems to say that we've been prepared more than enough, I dont think so. lo. I get really tense up just thinking about it.

Do you know there's 2 kinds of people out there whom you call smart. One- they get good grades because they have it in the genes, they cant help it. Its like child's play for them. Two- they get good grades because they worked really really hard for it. As you can see, if I want people calling me smart, the only way is through reason two. Yes.I dont have anything in my genes to make me smarter & it isnt helping that Im more or less, retarded.

But whatever the case is,I suppose Im gonna work doubly hard. since there's 2 exam modules this semester and it marks a very important thing. Anyway. I do hope my GPA will either maintain or hopefully increase :) hahax..of course. I dare not think too much, for the higher your hopes are, the greater the disappointment.

Good Luck for me. & all my GFs of course AND only anyone whom I considered a friend. People like EJ should just get my footprint on their ass & flunk the exams & be labelled as a retarded loser for the rest of their life.

:) I am evil. I know.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Last blogged @ 8:25 PM

Nice. Everything's going to be okay now. I wont act like some kind of nutty ex girlfriend who still gets emotional over his stupid crap he gave. I wont have to tense up when he comes close to me. Its all over. You are so out of my life this very moment. I had enough of you. Your lies. Your excuses. Everything.

Monday, February 18, 2008
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ERIC JONATHAN KOH KIAN LI IS MORE THAN AN ASSHOLE.

Saturday, February 16, 2008
Last blogged @ 8:00 AM

Alright. Here are some of the shots I took when I went msia. There were loads more but I decided to summarise it. hahax..coz there were really far too many photos. All are in random order :)

The baby below is like only 3 months old. Can you believe it? I know :) so damn freaking um, chubby right?! Not my cousin though X( Just a baby my aunt in msia is babysitting after.

I got this bag from a shop in msia. Gonna use it for school. but not yet :) lol.. so you guys got to see it first. X)

Took this shot on the way to spore. Sitting next to kido in the coach. PIG. He was zzZzz-ing away.

This stupid plate of freaky food costs dad 30bucks. I dont know why he's willingly to fork out such a sum for such a stupid plate of crap. Even though it was his cousin who sells them =.=

SUPPER AT YING HUA~

Grandmoma tied my hair like this coz she said itts real humid. & they dont have any thick scrunchies so she had to divide my thick hair into 2 ppony tails :) I look very guai right?

Take a peek at my house in the morning.Mine's the one with those red red decorations wheras the yellow painted house actually belongs to my third aunty. Like us, she leaves it empty unless she's back. So sadly this CNY,she didnt came back to msia so it look so abandoned X(

Why I eat breakfast in MSIA~ Roadside Noodles Stall :)

Totally different from spore and the taste is like damn nice.. for me la :)

This is the kitchen. Spotless :)

Grandmoma outside the front of her house. If you see how they prepared the food, I bet you wont wanna eat them XP hahax.but no worries, gran's a very much a good cook.

Friday, February 15, 2008
Last blogged @ 10:14 PM

I know many expect I spent yesterday with him. But I didnt :) Spent it with my GFs & SC mates. Love was in the air ytd..SC so called organised songs dedications for students who are keen.

Under my SC mates persuasion & losing in the oh ya bei ya somh with rach&karen, I dedicated a song for my teachers&class :) How sweet of me right? Except that they didnt have the song I wanted so choose another song instead.

& Guess wad? The guy read my dedication msg & added "I lay my love on you" =.= EXCUSE ME?!?! That was the song's title. wa kao. so ps..& ppl were telling me how mushy I was. Damn dotx la.

Anyway. Had a blast goofing around. Rach got me hand made chocolates =) yum yum~ Very deliciously sweet of her. lol..& karen got me a lolipop so sweet I almost die of diabetes..lol. But anyway whatever gift received,its the thought that counts :) THANKS GUYS~

Watched JUMPER with rach,karen,jiale,ken&yuehao. It was damn funny la. we got the tickets & swopped it around to see who get to sit with who..lol.In the end I sat next to Ken =.= the movie was definetely damn worth the freaking ticket. Asked ben dan come he dont want.. hmph. lol.. nvm..we shall catch another movie next time.

Well. what else can I say. There are loads of shots I wanna share but currently I am like damn busy coz I've entre project3+group presentation not started at all. AND thinkingskills project that we're rushing coz all three projects deadlines more or less,clashed with each other. AND HOR..revision is to be done soon.For exams are in 11&12 March. wa kao.

Words that I dont say doesnt mean I dont feel it. ben dan. Still got the cheek to ask me why I say you're dense. I am not the only one..lol..everyone who knows you agree with me la.

Dont ask me if you're soft hearted coz I know everytime my mood swings kick in and I goes venting my anger on you, you are still willing to put up with everything to make me feel better.

I cried like some kind of fool in front of you shouting that forever do not lasts. I said not to tell me that it does coz I am not falling for this crap again. I said I was hurt and I dont wanna to taste it another time. I said so much that you were speechless. dumb & hurt by all those crap I threw at you. For this I am really sorry. Right from my heart.

Dont ask me why I never said the words you wanna hear coz I believe that I dont have to. LOL.. I know everytime you get damn freaking angry with me yet you will call me to make sure Im alright.

I know you gives in to me everytime I goes all whine-y & acting sweet..hahax. Still will ask why I so sweet today blah blah..is it that I did something guilty..wa kao.

You asked me why am I still with you when i can be with so many others.

I've told you this & I'll tell you this again,for my answer shall lasts as long as we lasts:

I am with you. coz you're ben dan :)

Sunday, February 10, 2008
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You've got a girlfriend. You send her home in your bike. You kiss her goodbye. You bring her over to your house. You chat with her outside her gate. You have your breakfast with her. You bring her for a ride on your bike. You circled around my house. What?



Are you trying to flaunt off this fact that you've got a girlfriend? And then so what? Damn this chinese new year. There's no such thing as new year resolutions for me. It never works. I dont understand why so many things have to change. Of course this is a stupid question. If I were to ask anyone, they're bound to say something like " you stupid or what? what thing dun change? Dun so naive la you! "

Alright. If you're gonna act like you dont know me just because you've got a girlfriend. Suit yourself. Coz i am gonna take it from here- I never know you. I dont remember some guy who smokes making friends with me. I dont remember this guy who was all shy when he came over to talk to me last year. I dont know what you heard from the others & i dont know what my nosy relatives tell you. But one thing I know for sure is you've changed to a completely different person.

Tonight will be the last night Im gonna sleep. For so many years in my life, this is the first damn freaking year that im actually looking forward to go back to spore. I guess the changes here is too much for me. But I suppose I will still miss this place all the same.

I've got so much to say that I dunno where to start. haiish. Guess im gonna end here.

Saturday, February 9, 2008
Last blogged @ 11:52 AM

I've noticed something lately. Majority of the girls who are attached, they blog about the love of their life almost in every post. hahax. So am I suppose to be doing this as well? lol. No offense here but I dont think Im gonna blog about him all day long.

& there's this problem with those girls out there. If I ever viewed their boyfriends or any guy which they happen to be crushing after, they viewed me back almost immediately. One word: dotx. I mean,aloha..? Nobody's gonna snatch him away..lol =.= I always believe that even lovers need holidays away from each other & if there was enough trust, there shldnt be any problem when either of you hang out with the opposite sex.

Okay,of course.Talking is always easier than doing the actual actions. As the saying goes, "Easier said than done" =) lol~ hahax.

Anyway.He smsed me again ytd.Said he miss me lots lots. & the first thought in my head was " so do i" but I replied him oh :) hahax.Am I mean? Nah,I dont think so. Its just coz I think that when some stuff are said ever too frequently, they lose their sentimental value. besides its sorta too mushy to exchange the "I miss you"&"I love you" constantly. Not unless Im in the mood of course XP hahax~ sorry.mood swings are a real big part of me.

AND the only guy I wont stop blogging about will be JIRO XD ~hahax~ Simply cant get enough of him la. lol. Okay. think I need to lose weight big time when i get back coz I am so pigging out like crazy here. More than 3 meals aday plus supper & late supper. Simply food heaven & cant get enough of the food choices i have here.

Gonna end here. Cant get enough of fei lun hai's MVs =)

Friday, February 8, 2008
Last blogged @ 1:14 PM

I saw him.

I am so damn freaking speechless.

He changed damn do freaking much.

Hairstyle & all..no big deal.

I saw him smoking.

I saw him walked right past me.

Just like that.

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Myspace Chinese New year Graphics

Thursday, February 7, 2008
Last blogged @ 1:43 PM

Okay. I am very mad now. SO mad that I dunno what to say. & too mad to reason out that I shouldnt even get mad in the first place. Alright *takes a deep breath* Logged into friendster just now. Happened to see who viewed my profile & there's this guy by the name of milstein aka mutant. Yeah..rmb him?

Okay.I viewed him back & scanned thru his comments & there's this guy who caught my attention. HIDEKI. Dont you wanna puke if you find out such a nice name belongs to some asshole aka EJ?!?!?!?!

& now I can swear upon my life that the girl he dumped me for was his very much beloved ex gf, MAiya. OHgodfreakingass. I cant believe I believe all those fu*king crap he told me about her. Its really damn freaking shameless&very much bullcrap. I know. I shuldnt have even bothered to check his profile out or whatsoever. Okay.my fault for getting too curious & unable to resists the urge to find out more.

And yea.right.I digged out the truth. in fact,more&more truth. No,not truth. its all just his fu*king ridiculous stupids lies & stories that set everyone wondering. ARGHH. Damn that asshole.

God. Everytime i think of every contact I had with him, I feel damn freaking dirty. so cheated. so bloody hell stupid. & damn it. I wasted so much tears. so much of my energy. wa kao. ARGH.

HE'S NOT GONNA GET AWAY WITH THIS.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008
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Did you know that JIRO WANG DONG CHENG actually pierce his ear? I know most guys do but he looks super damn dashing for this la =)

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He's attached. My grandmoma told me this out of the blue last night. Okay,I admit,my hear skipped a beat when I heard that. First thought was who's that girl? Anyway,then I was feeling kinda glad :) He deserves this. If he had been still in the Im still waiting for your answer stage, its gonna make both of us even more awkward. So I suppose this is the reason why I have not been seeing him around lately.

Anyway.Damn glad that I get to use the com today but its like damn freaking stuipdly crowded today coz in msia,they've got like one week of break for the CNY. Talk about holidays..spore could use some influence here.lol.

wa kao.was super duper happy that he receive my sms :) & replied.wee =) wa kao. miss him damn freaking much la. Of course,I sorta miss school & its wierd w/o my mates around me. The people here are getting wierder & wierder each year. I cant stand it the way they keep staring at me, checking me out as if I've grown another head. damn dotx la. But I've learnt the art of ignoring these stupid people :)

Okay:




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So far..everything's okay.

My cousins are sticking all over me& I dunno why they enjoys it but it pisses the hell out of me coz its like damn freaking humid here every single day.

The food here is just as yummy as always :)

Im trying to have a blast here :)

Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Last blogged @ 10:58 AM

Since I was primary5 & your age still remains a mystery.But I suppose it all doesnt matters now. Everytime I got back,I get this little feeling. The excitement to see you again& the changes in us we both know.

But there's this irony.we seems to grow more&more distant each year. You said why did I always never look you up whenever i got back & I said you didnt look me up either. For so many years,we've been like this & there's so much more we wanna talk about. You know I do.

Perhaps its this shyness we have that keeps us apart at this distance this far that I am now even afraid to think about you. Perhaps its my guilt that leaves me speechless whenever I see you even though a little voice in my head wanna shout your name out enough loud enough for the world to hear.

Cant find a word to describe how I feel now. But I believe that even as the phase "just friends" we deserves the chance to meet up & chat just like the past dont we? I dont mind what the others said. You know I dont..or did you not..?

I dont want this year to be like every other year where you only appear in front of me when Im going back to spore coz this year's really different & I wont be staying for long. Every night I sleep makes time even shorter for me. I dont wanna miss you.

Where are you? & I hope this little feeling will go away.

Monday, February 4, 2008
Last blogged @ 11:49 AM

OHMYFREAKINGGODASS~! Finally I get to use this freaking com in this really new posh place. Mom got me the prepaid card just as she said she would,but the receiption here sucks big time. I cant sms/call out of this state X( *sorry peeps*

Anyway,reached msia at arnd 5.30am ytd.Was super exhausted la coz mom kept disrupting my sleep in the bus,asking me if I wanna eat anything or use the toilet. =.= wa kao.So we had this really early breakfast of rou gu cha with my ah gong at like arnd 6am. So then we had wanton noodles after that. Okay, yea we were pigging ourselves out the moment we reached here.lol.

Okay.Did i tell you I very suai de..wa kao.Since last wed,my stomach already unwell le..then keep lau-sai-ing on&off till last night lea!!! WA KAO, so damn freaking irritating. But ah ma gave me some sort of powder for it & now i feel so much better le.

Anyway anyway,mom'd gonna drag me for facial with her later at 3pm. Then we are gonna celebrate ah ma's bday( dad's side ) later later on at night. wa kao. Just got back & a string of programmes all lined up waiting for us. Told mom to get a little tin of paint so we can paint our ugly little gate where the paint is already peeling off & its so rusty. then gonna hang up those new yr decorations + spring cleaning again coz its freaking dusty everywhere.

haiish. okay yea. there's this little thing tad've been bothering me alittle too much since I got back. I am so damn freaking upset that so much had changed. its like every year i get back, Im always in for more surprises. Do you know the other time I got so upset in class over the row of shophouses tad got burnt? wa kao. I cant believe it actually until I see it for myself. its a very very saddening sight. goddamnit la. I cant believe I still always complain this&that. We people just never know we're just very lucky to have a shelter&food. In fact we have more than we need to survive.

Gonna end this post here :)

Saturday, February 2, 2008
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Your Ex is Dependent

Your ex is dependent on others from almost everything - and has trouble accepting responsibility. Your ex is not able to be independent and fears being alone. People with dependent personality disorder feel helpless when a relationship ends and need constant reassurance. Sound at all familiar?

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It's 100% Love and 0% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

There's a Chance You Could Be Violent

Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions. Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act. Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage.

You Are 52% Good

You are a fairly good person. You strive to live a moral life whenever possible. You are usually kind, generous, and loyal. However, you do have a dark side that even you may not see. When it comes down to ethical decisions, you tend to take the path of least resistance. So you may end up lying, cheating, or engaging in other bad behavior... because it's just easier to do so. You are also probably: Conflicted and confused about the current course of your life Right now you are on track to being: A slightly crooked politician To be a better person: Break one bad habit - whether it's telling white lies or spending too much money.

You Need to Grow Up a Little

You're definitely not a kid anymore, though sometimes it's hard to tell. Your life is somewhat adult, but chances are, you aren't really satisfied with it. Whether this means getting a better job or dumping a loser boyfriend... It's definitely time for you to start living a fully adult life.

You Are An Introvert!

You're not necessarily anti-social, but you do tend to need a lot of alone time. You tend to think before you talk, which doesn't make you the loudest person in the room. While you aren't outgoing, you are a good listener - and you tend to be a loyal friend. And you enjoy your friends as much as any extrovert does, in smaller doses. You're more of a conversation over dinner type than a party animal... and so are all your friends.

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You Are An Independent Girlfriend!

Whoa, Ms. Independent! Your guy digs your modern style... But he's sometimes left to wonder if you really like him. Keep that unique spirit, but show him your love a bit more often. No worries - you're light years away from smothering him!

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That's the latest novel I just finished this morning. Seriously, this is a really very good book. Leaves you flipping page after page & god,it had a really touching&meaningful ending that I almost cried.

The plot is interesting.Not too draggy & details are just in the right amount to keep you hooked in this book. So hey, grab this book when you have the chance =) Gonna keep the plot a secret. lol..hahax.

Made this fish ytd during culinary. Dont ask me why do we fold this when we're suppose to cook. Teacher's idea & surprisingly, it was fun. Sorta of,at first. But my workmanship sucks big time & Im really really slow. lol =.=

Rach made this earring for me. Its a pair la,but I just took a shot of one. Love it =) *THX*

Played with my hp this morning. while waiting for him to call. Took this shot in negative.

Friday, February 1, 2008
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It doesnt mean I dont miss you even though I dont say it.


He said he was angry coz he waited for me & in the end I still choose to go for my CCA.

He said this is not the first time he waited & I left him just like that.

He said he was really upset coz he wont see me for two weeks & I didnt even spend my so called last day with him.

He said I didnt intend to come at all,which isnt the truth of course.

He said why didnt I even call him after he ran off.

He said why am I ben dan. why am I really really really ben dan.

He said why cant I be more caring.more thoughtful.more understanding.

He said why cant I just said those words that really meant alot to him.

He said why do I always insists that he's at fault.

He said why do I have to make things so difficult.

He said why is it hard for him to meet me up when other couples can meet as & when they want.

He said why did I go back to msia for CNY.

He said so many stuff.

& yet he didnt said so many stuff.

He called me twice. The call was long yet so little we exchanged. I think mostly coz we both were too stubborn to give in & the fact that I cant believe why he asked I have to go back to msia. Obviously, he didnt know how much this means to me.

& I suppose I am the bad girlfriend here. uh oh.

A very sad thingX(

& I injured my back. It hurts big time when it rains damn freaking hard today. Just got slightly better after mom helped me put some plasters.

wa kao.totally in no mood.

Just like whatever you call this. I cant find a word to describe it.

All those excitement suddenly seems to fade away too fast & I kept blaming myself for not saying those words he kept hinting me to say. Perhaps it has become a habit that now it seems part of me. I am always forever unable to say the right things.

wa kao. whatever. hope i can blog in msia.

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AFTER:

Had a really delicious dinner last tuesday. It was meant for Dad's annual "shou gong jiu" dinner thingy. so we spurlged on this dinner set package that even consists of shark's fin & two plates of crabs- one served black pepper & the other with spicy sweet sauce. Both are equally yummy.

The Afterword: We did our best to finish every plate. There were like 11 dishes in total. It is only a 'once a year' thing that we had this kind of dinner. Too costly, if you ask my opinion. lol. But heck, it sure sets you wanting for more.

Did you ever notice the dried nice looking flower they put on some dishes to make it more attractive? It is actually made up of some edible biscuit thingy. Told kido it can be eaten & he put the whole flower into his mouth. took one bite & spit it out. It s tasteless. Only suitable for those really really desperate for food, i guess.